I’m having a shit day. So I’m here to tell you that it’s OK if you’re having a shit day too. Whilst I know I’m almost always Positive Polly on my Instagram, it would be hypocritical should I neglect to mention the downsides. It’s so hard to think about the good days in the middle of the bad. Seriously, it’s like everything is clouded by this nasty black mess of negativeness and the only way to cure it is by eating a family-sized pasta portion and going to bed, hoping tomorrow is somewhat brighter. It feels like you’re really alone and no-one is going to want to listen to your whingeing, and the advice they give you will never work. This belief is harmful. People are always there to give you love and support, even when you’re completely convinced that they’d literally rather do anything else. I would likely fall apart without my gal pals willingness to listen and help with all of the shit I unload on them. That’s what friends are for.
Trying to push yourself to do things that you don’t want to do will seldom end well. Hence the importance or knowing when to take a break. You are allowed to struggle. Your worth is not determined by your productivity. There is nothing wrong with stepping back and taking some time to yourself. Better that than give yourself a breakdown or burnout.
I’ve never been less motivated. I’m lazy as fuck, sure, but it’s really not like me to struggle. I feel like I’m stuck, and a bit like I don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m going with my life. I’m fairly certain that by the time tomorrow morning rolls around, my mind-set will be completely different, but for now I just want to get into bed and cry. So don’t let anyone tell you how you can and can’t feel, don’t let them pressure you and don’t let them guilt trip you into overdoing it. You know what’s best for you. Always go with your gut. And there’s no shame in telling people you’re going off the grid for a bit to clear your head. Mental health is just as important as physical health and they should be given equal respect. I am in full support of calling in ‘sick’ if you need to get your balance back or have a couple of days dealing with your anxiety.
As a result of recent news, I believe it important to spread this kind of message. Don’t let things pile up on top of you. Speak up. You should always be your first priority. You are valid, important and loved and, for now, take it as it comes.
“I know you’re sad, so I won’t tell you ‘have a good day’. Instead, I advise you to simply ‘have a day’. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don’t give up on yourself just yet. It’ll be better soon. Until then, have a day.” – Unknown